Focusing on Clean Time Instead of Focusing on Working on Your Problems and Defects
Someone asked me today how many days/months have I been clean, I think I have achieved the ability to truly enjoy life and not obsess about drugs because I had to check my calendar, I was so excited! yesterday I had 7 months clean but, it’s not about how much time you have.
I had two years clean before I relapsed last summer and did make it out alive. I burned out because I was doing way to much and focusing on anything and anyone that took the focus off of doing actual work on myself. Now, I certainly do not encourage anyone to run out and relapse to find enlightenment. Relapse is just what it took for me to take a good hard look at myself.
Once you stop counting the seconds, then the minutes, hours and days, I think it can be one of two things, you are not clean or you do not care about how many days you have clean. It is not that you do not care, I am proud of myself for making it 7 months clean and serene. It is just it is not on the top of my priority list anymore. I do not open my statements or introductions at meetings, “Hi, my name is Amy and I am an addict with 7 months, 1 day, 9 hours, 33 minutes and 47 seconds clean,” I share about what works for me and what does not. I want to explore new things, new ways to enjoy my new life, free from the obsession to use drugs.
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