Doctors, The New Drug Dealers On The Block
Doctors take an oath to do no harm, so why have the last three visits I have had with doctors ended with me in tears? Today’s visit nearly set me over the edge. I am so sick of these doctors pushing narcotics on people then judging them yearslater f
I had a very bad experience with a very mean surgeon today. It seems the minute you are honest and tell the doctor you cannot take a script of narcotics they treat you completely different. It’s happened to me three times in the past month and a half. Only this doctor was cruel, I said I wanted to wait, I did not want to do the surgery just yet because he wanted to schedule me today the minute he saw my new MRI’s, he said they are getting too close to my spinal cord. I need a plate, 4 screws and fusions in my neck.
When he said he would prescribe me something until my surgery date I told him I couldn’t have opiates or narcotics, that I was on Methadone Maintenance Therapy and I would like some time to think about it. He told me I am not recovering, I’m addicted to methadone and I am still an addict. He went on to say he wasn’t going to see me after physical therapy was done because there’s no reason if i’m not going to get the surgery.
That money hungry greedy man doesn’t know me, I AM NOT IN ACTIVE ADDICTION, I HAVE BUSTED MY ASS TO STAY CLEAN, METHADONE SAVED MY LIFE, I have chronic pain, my lower back has blown out discs and scoliosis, arthritis, nerve damage & countless pinched nerves…they said because my neck is completely straight it is like balancing a bowling ball onto of a toothpick,…that nasty doctor said I’m only going to get worse so what’s the difference, get the surgery now or don’t clutter up my office until you decide to get the surgery…
he went on to say heroin’s the ultimate high, it doesn’t get any better then that so if you can’t have that take that then methadone just replaces it….that jerk knows nothing about me and obviously nothing about methadone because if he did he would know you don’t get high off of methadone and it is used to treat addiction and 80 mgs of methadone is a blocking dose…it takes the edge off of my pain, it does not mask it which is good because I do not want my pain masked and then end up hurting myself even more.
I am trying so hard to face these hurdles with new eyes, learn the hidden lessons from each negative experience and turn it into something positive, a life lesson of some sort. It is getting more and more difficult though. It seems like every week I am faced with a new problem involving my disabilities, health insurance and doctors. I am trying to keep my smile, keep living life, trying to overcome these issues but I have to realize, I am human. I am entitled to feel angry, sad and worried when these things happen. It is just so difficult to have these things thrown at me like rapid fire. I could say something profoundly inspirational something well thought out and carefully reviewed but this post is to show you all that I am human. I get mad, sad and angry. Tuesday was one of those days and I wrote this when I got home with my microphone because I am unable to type from my disabilities I was going to erase it. I didn’t because you should know that I may have a message to carry, I may have a talent to write but I am also human and life comes at me. The difference today is that I do not have to use drugs to cope with it!
- An Integrated Model Approach To Recovery and Addiction (amylong1933.wordpress.com)
- Therapeutic Communities and Methadone Maintenance, 1965-1971 (alcoholanddrugshistorysociety.wordpress.com)
- Alternative addiction drug needs support: doctor (cbc.ca)